|Now Time Ministries|
lost n found
I felt like I stood alone in a place where no one else has been,
I felt like no one could relate or knew the pain that I was in,
My body was in a depression, my spirit living in recession but it all went away with one confession
I needed Help, I needed God
I could not continue the way I was on my own
I could not give into the feelings that I was having alone at Home.
So I went to church I knew I could meet you there.
As the singers sang and the preacher preached
I felt you calling me to get out of my seat
I felt your calling upon my heart
I began to think and get scared, I knew the right thing to do but I didn’t know where to start.
I have not been in church for years
I have done so many bad things, How can you love me crosses my mind as I wipe away the tears.
I knew that I need submission, I felt you all over me,
I could not deny your conviction
I felt this long ago when I grew up in church
But I got older and I thought that I was ok because I didn’t feel it anymore
I thought I was doing good, I thought that I was playing the game of life and winning
But I was out of church so long I didn’t even know that I was sinning
Now I sit in this pew and I feel every pain, every beating, and every hit that you went through.
I now see that you why u said, “Father forgive them, they know not what they do”
I see that I am a sinner in need of a savior
The preacher just preached about the salt that has lost its flavor
I feel like that
For too long I have had this monkey on my back.
God I need you, please come into my life
I lay myself down to you; from now on I give you this fight
(sing) I need Thee oh I need Thee
My grandma used to sing a song like that
I understand what she means now
Gone through some things but always made it out somehow
The invitation is being given
I invited you in my life right here God why do I need to go up there
The people will see me, I’m scared
And you wisper peace be still into my ear
Its gone, I hear your voice, u did not give me a spirit of Fear
People are going to see me, but I don’t care
I scream freedom as I run up there
Making my outward confession
I didn’t know I could feel so free in your presence.
Thank you God for never leaving me
I have learned my lesson.
People prayed for me at the altar,
They rejoiced with me, smiled and invited me to come back
The feeling that I had felt inside, I never wanted it to leave I wanted it to last.
As I left to come home the pastor shook my hand
He told me that today would be the first day of my new life and that God had a plan.
I always knew that He had a plan I just never knew that I was in it
I felt so lost, so worthless, so consumed with garbage that I never really cared about eternity or where I would spend it.
But today I met Jesus, Gods one and only Son