I got hit with a bombshell from the enemy last night. After a great day at work I came home and started studying for a sermon that I am putting together. Things were going great, good ideas, good concept, I was excited. It was about 730pm when I stopped working on that and decided to make something for dinner. Red Baron supreme pizza, oh yes. Hey don't judge me, I'm single. lol. Sat and ate while watching a movie. Got a call from my best friend in MI and we talked about 30 min about some things we have been praying about. When I hung up the phone I felt as though I was hit with an A bomb of inferior feelings. My mood had quickly changed form upbeat and excited to "man I am a loser and will never amount to anything". I know this may be typical for the average bi-polar american. However I am not bi-polar. This is not a normal thing for me. At first I did not do the right thing, I did all the wrong things, first wrong thing I did was start to swell on the past and things that I had done before. Second wrong thing I did was turn my Pandora radio on and hit my Boyz II Men station. I began to sulk and have my very own pity party.
This went on for about an hour before I made a decision to change my atmosphere. I had to make a choice of sitting in my sorrows or turning my situation around. I began to fight back, first thing I did was change the music to worship, I began going through scripture in my mind that would begin to take what I was feeling and shove it back in the enemies face. I am more than a conquerer, Jer 29:11 God has a plan for me that will prosper me and give me a hope and a future, I can do all things through Christ, Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world. And on and on. it did not take long for my battle to become a victory.
Stand firm on what God's promises are, because in my bible they are YES and AMEN. Change your situation by changing your mindset. Change your atmosphere from doom and gloom and stop feeding into the sorrow. You are a child of the King and nothing can change that, you have royal blood flowing through your veins. This is not the England royal wedding, its leagues better than that. Stand firm child of God, Stand Firm bride of Christ, Stand firm and know that He is God.
BRANDON, I AM PROUD OF THE PROGRESS YOU HAVE MADE. KEEP FIGHTING THAT DOOM AND GLOOM SPIRIT AND GET IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD. ALL THINGS CHANGE WHEN GOD IS IN THE ROOM. YOU HAVE ALREADY LEARNED WHY SO MANY ARE BEING DEFEATED AND LEARNED TO TURN THE WHOLE ATMOSPHERE AROUND AND HAVE VICTORY. WE ARE PRAYING FOR MANY SOULS BECAUSE OF YOUR MINISTRY AND FAITHFULNESS. LOVE YOU AND STILL PRAYING,GRANDMA