It is so Good to be me!
For real though.
It's good to be me
You couldn't possibly understand because your you.
Now that's not a put down
I'm just stating a fact.
U don't understand what it is to be a 6'3" Caucasian teddy bear.
You couldn't possibly understand that.
The me that I am could not fathom being another man.
I walk in my own shoes across these streets.
Watching others do them while trying my best to live up to who I am supposed to be.
It's good to be me but being me isn't always good.
You could inspect me like a new ride you want to buy.
On the outside I'm lookin cherry but you forgot to look under the hood.
U didn't see no rust and my paint was lookin tight.
Never started me up to see if I ran right.
It ain't your fault though
The salesman is just doin him.
If you would have looked just a little bit closer you still could not have seen the inside of my brain. I mean motor.
The thoughts that overwhelm the inside would surely be enough alone for you to pass me by.
No sale. Not this guy.
It's so good to be me but people at times have amnesia of the mind so they want to control my life.
Looking back at my past and tell me that I can't like they was my dad.
Or that they had some control over my destiny.
It's funny how people will stop screwing up their lives long enough to try and redirect me.
Like they knew the script of my life and the compass of my heart.
Don't get me wrong some people have that right but it's usually someone that loves me being me and they see how I can do me better so I let them.
No one has ever forced someone's change without them giving consent.
It's so good to be me but I never feel good.
I'm not sick, well, not physically
But if u look just past my skin u will see my flesh is deadly
U could say its a disease.
It's not really contagious I promise.
Every living soul has it, the bad news is their is nothing you can do, it's chronic.
Something We all have to live with.
There are treatments that can be done to help it.
Like get a hobby, read a book try to occupy your mind.
But these have proven to only work for a short time.
There is one more thing you could do that is getting huge results.
In know that this may be offensive or maybe you have been done wrong
But millions of people went to that guy that was hung on the cross.
You may have heard about Him.
They say the man died and was raised up again.
I know it sounds crazy and many have given Him a bad name.
But I can testify to what He did.
The shame that I had from all those thoughts, the pain in me from all those nights.
You don't have to listen to me but who am I if I do not try.
Like I said its good to be me even though being me is not perfect.
In the end I will give God the glory and I stand my ground when I say
It is Worth it.